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*sigh* My Pain! My Pain... Could maybe possibly be at an end, and in all honesty I'm not sure how I feel about that, because I've been living with said pain (steadily getting worse) for damn near two years now.

On the other hand, since I haven't started the meds yet my hope may be jumping the gun.

Make my ego even greater and comment with sympathy, and maybe even promises to send lip gloss.

Okay, no, on the lip gloss, and hell I'll just keep rambling whether or not anyone comments. Want proof? Just read my journal. Anyway... Moving on!

Anyway, this morning I went and saw a foot doctor today, and (I think) because the previous foot doctor treated for arthritis, which clearly wasn't the problem this new doctor had some new thoughts.
Now I do think I have arthritis, I just never believed that was the cause of my extreme foot pain. But some aches and pains every so often in my arms and legs (at the jointy things) and a total freeze up of my thumb last summer when I was spraying weed killer do (I think) indicate that there is some arthritis just not yet severe.

He believes it may be a nerve thing, and has given me a suicide pill (more commonly known as Neurontin)... *sigh* I was really hoping to avoid taking any type of meds where thoughts of self harm (up to and including suicide) was a potential side-effect. There's shockingly a whole bunch out there where that is a potential side-effect.

On the other hand, if it works and doesn't cause those thoughts I shall be thrilled. Of course, if it works and causes those thoughts then I suppose I all ready know (with much bitching and complaining) how to live with the pain, though living with the pain is about as fun as it sounds which is not at all. Because being in sound mind and painful body (which I am right now because I don't start taking the pill until tonight) I'd rather live with the pain then end it all, you know.

So, I don't know why, but for some reason I just wanted to put this out there.
*hugs* I hope they'll find the cause and then obliterate the cause of your pain.
Well, if these pills work (he only gave me two weeks worth) then when I go back (in just over two weeks) I'm assuming he'll give me more. And even if they don't work, just by having been treated for two potential causes will hopefully give the doc a better idea of what might be going on.